Where to start? That would be March 2007. I was in the US Army and just arrived at my Duty Station, Ft Carson in Colorado. I had met a great guy and we ended up dating. Didn't really think about TTC it just happened. July 2007 I found out I was pregnant at 14 weeks, I had to have an ultrasound because I thought something was wrong with my ovaries (Infertility problems in family past had made me aware that there were chances that I would have the same issues). The scan showed that I was 14 weeks along. I was so excited and to make it better it showed Identical Twin Girls! I always wanted that so much. Unfortunately two days later I had a complete miscarriage. I had things going on at the same time in my life so didn't grieve then instead I went on with life, I guess you could say I grieved silently the whole time but didn't show it. The next year in February I fell pregnant again. May 1st marked 14 weeks and that morning I woke up to cramping and another complete miscarriage. I had once again miscarried just days after finding out I was, loosing my son was harder than expected. This time I had time to grieve and I did, fell into depression for a long time. Didn't go out and hang with friends or even talk to my SO at the time. This final loss eventually split the two of us up.
Now its October 2011, 3.5 give or take years from the loss of my son and I am with my childhood sweetheart and we just suffered our first loss together and my 3rd mc. Baby 4, (I feel was another son) was lost at 5w3d. I know now that my grief in prior mc's was nothing compared to this and I think I know why. I know I am now with who I am meant to be with and knowing this and knowing that this mc was our first baby together makes it harder. Our hopes were high as everything this time was different with the first two pregnancy's I'd had. I will get into this further in another post but for now you know a little of my losses and now for the journeys each loss took.
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